Friday, December 18, 2009

Feeling Beautiful.

Hello my lovelies.

So, after my episode with the scale having sent me into a spiraling, ridiculous depression, I wanted to do a little blog post about feeling beautiful. 'Cause, damn, it's difficult. So many things can get us down, and it usually starts with the scale, at least for me it does. And then we can start picking ourselves apart. The way our pants fit, or if our skin is breaking out, or if our hair is as dry as straw, or the way a stranger looks at us.

I took the time today to go get my hair done. It wasn't anything crazy, it wasn't a full spa day. I still need a manicure and pedicure desperately and my skin is dry as all getout. I'm pre-menstrual and I've got a break-out on my face, and I'm retaining water. But? After I got my hair done, I got home and decided to take a photo of myself.

I was pretty happy with it, but not ecstatic. Then, I figured I should put it side by side with one I took before I lost weight.

You guys? In this moment, I feel beautiful.



For me, it's a reminder to take the bad days in stride, and I seriously need to stop letting the scale run my life. I don't know if I can throw it out or hide it yet, but I'm getting there. So when Dan picks me up and tells me I'm hot, or if my hair dresser says, "Hey Gorgeou-ass!" I'm gonna smile and say, "Aw, thank you!" I am going to take it to heart and know that I am beautiful.

And dammit, the scale can suck my nuts.

But maybe it's all fake because the scale was back down today, you were all correct. 172.2 as of this morning. But I'm going to say, NAY! I'm feeling good and resolving to be better about how I love myself.

...I'm working on it, y'all. Thanks for your support. I love you guys like monkeys love bananas. <3

~Jenn

42 comments:

Monica said...

Jenn, you are sooooo beautiful and a half!

Mel said...

I told you on Twitter, but I'll tell you again - you look great! I'm so glad I found your blog and can follow along with you as you make these changes. It's very inspiring.

Chuck said...

You do not even look like the same person! Phenomenal transformation...and I don't even care if I spelled that wrong!
You are braver than most women I know just talking about "scales" at this time of year...hold your head up and carry on, soon you will have to change the name of the site to just Hot Girl. Happy Holidays.
C

Dawn Dishes It Out said...

You look beautiful! Sounds like you had a day that you needed to remember how to love yourself.

Scales do suck nuts!!!! Hysterical.

MMM said...

You are beautiful! And you are right.... that scale is BAD news! I will send you mine, and then we can burn them or something... because I hate mine too! I think it lies and then laughs when I cry! Oh well. Hang in there! You are awesome!

Jennifer said...

So pretty! What a difference! How beautiful! Love the hair!

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

You ARE beautiful Jenn!

Hopefully one day I will feel as beautiful as you look!

Stormy Vawn Bradley said...

You are beautiful in and out. No doubt. You progress is amazing.

Ashton Dene' said...

You are beautiful!!

x, ash

Claire said...

I have that same relationship with the scale, unfortunately. I can totally relate...totally.

You look gorgeous! Isn't it such a kick in the pants to get your hair done?! Love it!

Veronica Marcetti Dimick said...

OMG. I love the haircut.

I looked at the "after" picture immediately and thought how gorgeous you looked -- I didn't just think you looked hot "by comparison."

*smooches*

Ms Amanda said...

You look amazing! You should be so proud of yourself!
By some new panties to celebrate ;)

kanmuri said...

Wow! You look gorgeous!!! I think you need to change your blog profile picture to a new one!

Chibi said...

You look great! :)

I will obsess over every teeny, tiny fluctuation, that I only allow myself to weigh in once a month - it doesn't do my head in nearly as much.

Crysi said...

You look amazing for sure! Definitely a hottie. :)

I can't believe the difference in your face, but I always gain and lose weight in my face too.

That other girl said...

its amazing how a haircut can make a person look different you look good :-)

Michelle said...

I love the new hairdo!

And you look so so good! I'm so proud of you doing so well!

Sarah said...

I love the hair. You are so beautiful!!

MrsFatass said...

Okay. Gorge-ass is a word I'm stealing, I love your new hair, you talked me out of my creative depression thus allowing me to enjoy the first date night I've had in months, and you are captivating and talented and you are the peanut butter to my jelly.

Linguista said...

Yay for you! You are so amazingly beautiful Jen. And you've come so far. I can't believe you even look at the scale.

Thanks for the love, and right back at ya! I'm stuck on you, like a virgin's left leg is stuck on her right! :)

Jennifer said...

You are so much fun, haha. You make my workday more bearable :)

karen@fitnessjourney said...

Love the bangs! You look so adorable and that color you are wearing is perfect for you. Have you ever noticed that you look better in certain colors than in others? People usually compliment me when I wear red-that's why I wore red for my profile pick.

It's so nice to hear you talking so positively about yourself. I like that you treated yourself to something that makes you feel good afterward. Too often food is the treat and makes us feel worse later.

Hooray for you! You look amazing!

Jenn(ifer) said...

Ohhh! I love the hair!

I always say, I may not be able to change many things, but I CAN always change my hair :-)

Looks great!

Allie said...

Hot Stuff! Wow, total change... you look wonderful!

'Drea said...

You're right about the picking ourselves apart.

Now, if we can all concentrate on doing the opposite...

Chula said...

Love the darker color on you, you look gorgeous!!!!!

kimert said...

I am so glad you feel beautiful because girlfriend you ARE beautiful!! You've been such an inspiration to me. :) Happy Holidays!!!!

The Insatiable Host said...

loves the new hair!!! I really can't believe how much of a transformation you have made..not just on the outside. I have had the chance to read back into your posts to see where this whole ex hot girl came from...your writing has been perfected; style has been created and your goals have been achieved and re-set. I am continually impressed with your dedication and ambition...(i am feeling sincere today and dont even have anything sarcastic to follow that up with...must be the pms). anyhoo, you are wonderful and I love that you are loving you more!

xox
insaitable host

Midwest Girl said...

GAH! How f***in' cute are you?! I can't take it!

Stephanie said...

You look absolutely beautiful!!!!! :)

Andrea said...

You look really good! So pretty!
The scale can really get in the way of us feeling pretty, but after all, the scale can't see all the way's we're making progress. It's just a number.
You're beauitiful and I'm happy for you!!

LiLu said...

Awwww. I love you like a mouse loves peanut butter!!

(Ed. note: A LOT.)

Priscilla Whitenight said...

love love LOVE your new hair!

MB said...

You should FEEL beautiful because you LOOK beautiful!

Tgoette said...

No question about it, Jenn, you are beautiful! Thanks for your inspiring blog and keep up the great work!

TerraC said...

Love the new style really slims your face even more!!

Tania said...

Seriously, you look awesome. The new haircut is beautiful. Anytime you're feeling down definitely just look at this post. The proof is in the pudding my dear. You really do look beautiful. You go girl!

NatureCat said...

Beautiful inside & out!

Lisa said...

You look Great!!

Lianne said...

you are gorgeous :) never forget that!

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Jen Hiro said...

youre such an inspiration! and yes, you ARE beautiful!

Shae Adele said...

you are beautiful! :)
before, and after the weight loss.

thanks for posting this, it's so great to read something like this when you're feeling down!