And I'm freaking out already.
I'm doing a 5 day Raw Cleanse, and I'm 6 hours into Day 1, which involves fasting. Nothing but water for 24 hours.
The idea that I am not allowed to eat is just messing with me. I actually feel like I'm sick. I don't feel SICK, but I feel like I'm acting like I'm sick. I keep chugging water and Dan's sitting there eating leftover pasta. I'm pouting and cuddling up with blankets and drinking water, and pouting some more. I want food so bad.
*By the way, Dan offered to not eat around me but I told him no, that it's my choice and I should be able to do it without changing his routine.
It's like going shopping when you don't have any money. Everything looks so awesome, and you wish you could buy everything. But when you go to the same store when you have money, it's like, "Nah..."
I'm looking at the yogurt, soy milk, fruit, asparagus and wheat english muffins in my kitchen with lust I've never felt before. And I'm not even 1/2 way through my fasting day.
Here's hoping I can hold on to some kind of self control and not just say, "Well I'll just do Raw food for the full five days, that's good too, right?"
I'm sure there's a good reason for the 24 hour fast.
From the e-mail they sent me:
There are several reasons why the program starts with a
The 24-hour fast will restore your natural hunger.
It will get your mind off food, and help you focus on why
you're doing this process.
This 24-hour fast will also make you feel light, more
optimistic and ready to take on this adventure!
I promise you,
after you go through this it will be so worth the effort.
Your body will feel AMAZING. Use the time to get things
done. Handle your photo albums, your bills or unwritten
letters. Get productive and distracted from food. The day
will go quickly and you'll feel terrific for it.
Well, I can say I just got through five solid hours of work on my photography business and I did feel EXTREMELY productive.
I'm off to watch TV with Dan and drink about a gallon more of water.