Confession #1: I'm back to the weight I started at before I went on vacation to Denver. I was around 169-170 when I was at the beginning of my vacation, and then at one point I got down to 167.6. I ate Taco Bell and TCBY, and I gained some serious water weight. I actually saw the scale go up to 174 the day after Taco Bell. Today I'm back down to 169. And so begins the process of being back on track with low carb eating. I also am at the point where I'm sort of regretting the planned cheat. I loved the taste of the food. It felt good while I was eating it, and I felt like I deserved it. But now, I'm regretting it because it set me off track on my goal. I have to spend another week or two to get back into fat-burning mode. I feel like I have wasted time. Now, I know that in the grand scheme of things, one or two weeks isn't life-changing time to have lost. But I'm impatient and greedy. So, I stocked up on salad and eggs and I need to go get some tuna because I'm out of it. I'm not going back, Jack! Not until I get closer to my goal, or to it.
Confession #2: I didn't complete the shred. In fact, I only got about 2 weeks through. Apparently I'm a 1/2-way through kind of girl. I found myself getting busy and making excuses, and above all, getting really frustrated at the weight gain I saw instead of seeing a loss. I'll totally admit it. I quit.
Confession #3: I'm canceling my gym membership. It's $80/month and I haven't been in two. Zumba is fun but these tootsies haven't seen a treadmill in four months or so. I guess I've just found that losing weight comes better to me when I'm focusing entirely on my food intake and less or not at all on my physical activity. When I first started my weight loss journey in December of 2008, I worked out three to five times a week for an hour minimum each time. I had a personal trainer. I kept my calories around 1500-1700/day. I lost ten pounds in five months. I just wasn't seeing results and it was totally frustrating. As soon as I switched gears and started paying crucial attention to the food I was putting in my mouth and customizing my eating to what MY body needs in order to lose weight, it started to come off. I'm happy with my choice, and while I might miss the idea that the gym is there whenever I want it to be... I certainly miss that $80 a month more than that idea.
Confession #4: I just finally watched Twilight.
Confession #5: I fracking LOVED it. (Mom, Dad, you were right.) But, I honestly have to say, it probably has 90% to do with the fact that Robert Pattinson looks like my new boyfriend, Chris Thile. ;)
So. What are your confessions? ;)