So, I have just got to share this with you all. I'm not sure if I'll regret it, but I'm planning a little binge. I've never done it before. Well, I've never done it with this degree of planning, though I definitely have eaten this way in the past. And now that I think about it, I don't think it actually will qualify as a binge, but it's at least a planned break in my diet.
You all know that I'm a freak of nature when it comes to my eating plan. I'll stick to it come hell or high water, and refuse even the greatest holiday temptation or the sweetest offer of non sugar free gum. I've lost two pounds since being on vacation, and I'm pretty damn proud of that. I'll be doing a post later on losing weight (or simply maintaining it) while traveling.
Anyhoo. I should back up and explain WHY I feel the need to do this.
I used to work at the most awesome place ever. In high school, I worked at TCBY. If you don't know what that is, I'm really sorry. It stands for "The Country's Best Yogurt." And that's the damn truth. I worked there for a few years, and it was delicious. I seriously hope some of you know what TCBY is, because I'd hate to be alone in my obsession with their yogurt. So. I've been craving and craving and craving it. I'm not normally a sweets person. I don't go nuts over ice cream usually (though I do have my favorites: Mint Chocolate Chip or Coffee Ice Cream... yum! Oh! Or Peppermint. That's the greatest thing ever.) But because I used to work there, I figure there's also some kind of wiring in my brain that associates it with happy feelings.
So for the past six weeks I can't stop thinking about White Chocolate Mousse. With mini chocolate chips. And Golden Vanilla with chopped peanuts.
Here's the trouble: a) My diet involves no dairy or sugar. (Well, shit.) b) There aren't any TCBY's in Denver or Milwaukee. Except... at the airport. YAY for the airport!
So I'm actually asking my parents to drop me off at the airport an HOUR early. This, so I can go to the TCBY, order something fabulous and sit and eat it really slowly and savor the experience. And then, I still will have time to order another flavor if I want to. I'm serious about this, people. I'll be sharing pictures.
Many of you are probably thinking I'm insane, and that's okay. We all know I'm a lunatic. But you're probably like, "Umm, Jenn? A half cup of low fat yogurt is NOT a binge, and it's barely a cheat, mmmkay?" Yes, I know. It's simply a huge break from my very specific diet plan. It's just a big deal to me.
...But you guys? It doesn't end there. 'Cause I can't stop thinking about Taco Bell.
So, of course, I've decided that I want to go get Taco Bell with Dan when I get home. I want a bean burrito with no onion, a cheese quesadilla and a crunch wrap and a super bell grande nacho deluxe or whatever it's called. Now we'll see if I have the guts to follow through with the Taco Bell idea when I actually get home, or if I'll feel satisfied and guilty enough over the yogurt to not do it.
I know, I know, I shouldn't feel "guilty" over something like that. But, I will. I mean, it's been a vacation full of compliments and my head is huge now, especially 'cause you all are so damn sweet and supportive. But I still am not to my goal. I'm still overweight. I just happen to carry my weight fairly well, and I'm blessed with decent proportions. But I know how I feel and that the beginnings of muscle definition I have in my legs and the smaller waist I'm enjoying are only whispers of what I'm capable of. I know I have more fat to lose, and I'll be more comfortable at that smaller size. I still can't fit into those size 8's. :)
But then again, they say it's "okay" to cheat. And I feel like it's sort of a reward for my hard work, and it's food I miss. But, on the other hand, they also say you should have NON food rewards. Well, I shop my face off and totally have no self control when it comes to just buying what I feel like I want to wear or getting a pedicure if I want one. I'm a spoiled brat. So, I just get confused and right now I want to stop writing about this because I'm sure you're confused too.
My point is: I want TCBY and Taco Bell.
So! I wanted to update you all with my nuttiness and see if you have ever planned a binge. Yeah, I guess this is only counting as a pseudo-binge if I do the Taco Bell thing, but dammit, I REALLY want to.
Mmmm, Taco Bell.