I've been totally unmotivated over the last month or so. I ate badly, then "recommitted" to getting back on track, then let thing after thing pull me off course.
My weight has fluctuated between 168 to 178 over the last month. Much of that has to do with water weight, as I've gone back and forth from carbohydrate intake to low carbohydrates, and that also includes high amounts of sodium. I was doing really well, and then my friends came into town to visit me. That was the excuse to eat badly, along with the fact that my friend Wes (usually my fellow low-carber) was not on plan because of some medications he was taking. So... here's a sampling of what I ate:
Burger and fries from Culvers
Burger and fried cheese curds from Culvers
One white castle burger and a whole medium movie theater popcorn
Garrett's Chicago mix cheese and caramel popcorn (easily an entire medium bag of it)
Sleeve of ritz crackers
1/2 pound ham and cheese Hot Pocket
King sized Payday
Three donuts (two of which were creme filled)
Fish tacos (fried fish, not grilled)
Large pub style nachos
Untold amounts of onion rings
Denny's breakfast (awesome omelette and a pancake)
Small plates dinner at Swig, including crab cakes, salad, flatbread, tempura snap peas, breaded three-cheese ravioli and a dessert sampler
Okay. That's all I can remember, but there obviously has to be even more than that. Needless to say, this was TOTALLY a week-long binge. I decided that since I was eating that way anyway, it was my "opportunity" to eat everything I wasn't allowed to eat, and I did it. And boy did I feel AWFUL after it was all over. I felt like CRAP. I felt bloated and uncomfortable. I had gas and tummy problems, and my face felt fat. I had water weight and I felt awful peeling off my clothes to take a shower. It sucked.
Moral? It's just NOT worth it, y'all.
The official numbers today, March 15th, 2010:
5'6.5", 174 lbs
Bust = 39.5
Waist = 32
Hips = 41.5
I've been back on my low carb program with a vengeance for two days, and I feel SO MUCH BETTER, it's not even funny. I've also come across a new program, and I'm going to look into it a little bit more before I decide if I'm going to try it. I'll share with you guys in a bit.
I'm going to Cancun on vacation mid May. I have eight weeks, and I'm really curious to see how much weight I can melt off in that two month timeframe. Skinnier me + bikini? HERE I COME!
SO. Now I wanted to take some time to answer some questions I've gotten!
Q: How is the studio hunt going with all the other busy happenings?
A: I put in my application for the space I posted before, and should hear tomorrow, I think! If things go well I will be aiming for move-in by April 1st or so.
Q: Do you do a lot of studio work?
A: I do a fair amount. It averages around a shoot a week. But, a large reason for that is my dissatisfaction with my current studio space. Once I move to a more real, professional space... I will be able to really push and market my studio work. :)
Q: My advice is to work out. Do you work out? You should work out!
A: My gym membership is soon to be canceled (at $80/month!) I haven't been there in over four months. I loath working out. I've considered getting back into Krav, but I can't make a financial commitment when I know I won't do it. I've gone into and out of so many workout programs, but I can NOT commit to it. I seriously, seriously hate it.
Q: Are you happy with your current weight? Who holds you accountable?
A; I'm happier with my current weight than I ever was with weighing 225. It's a false happiness, because I really want to lose another 20-30 pounds. But when I fit into these size 10 jeans and I am 50 pounds down from where I was before... I feel "okay." I am my only accountability. You guys are a huge support system, and I feel reluctant to post when I slip or eat wrong or gain weight. But aside from that, I have no diet/working out/fitness buddy or anything like that.
Q: Why are there Pop Tarts in your house?
A: Unfortunately, I don't live alone, and I refuse to let my food weaknesses be a reason to go postal on Dan's food choices. He can eat Pop Tarts if he wants to, and it's not his fault, or his problem, if I am not strong enough to NOT EAT THEM.
Q: Can you post some low-carb recipes?
A: Well, yes and no. Just because low carb eating is SO super simple... I don't really go nuts in cooking. What I can do is post some more detailed info on what I eat and a few options for each meal. I like to keep it sweet and simple. Keep an eye out for that post soon!
Ta-ta- for now!
PS... Thank you, THANK YOU to all of you who have been so kind as to bestow a blog award upon me over the last few weeks. I am way too behind to come by and grab them and re-distribute, but I should just say that it does mean a lot and I LOVE that you're thinking of me. Thank you!